At the end of 2009, I chose the word “clarity” as my theme word for 2010. Now that I’ve lived with clarity for over three months, I thought I’d share some things about the experience.
When I chose clarity, I thought it would help me focus on actions and behaviors that supported various goals. What I hadn’t considered is that core beliefs and the everyday chatter that runs through a person’s mind tends to drive what a person does. It became immediately obvious that my thoughts needed work.
The first couple months felt a lot like getting scolded by the teacher in first grade for talking in class. Repeatedly. I found myself thinking. “Can we just move on?”
Sometime in March the focus shifted to action. I started working with my mom to clean out her house in preparation for a time when she can’t live alone. I also started looking at apartments for her in retirement communities near me. I spend more time in the sewing room, and I’m finishing projects faster. I am teaching myself free motion quilting. I discovered audio books so I can make good use of the six-hour roundtrip to mom’s house. Learning opportunities appeared that support my goals. I plan to take a couple of classes this year. I started meditating and practicing yoga.
If it sounds like a lot to happen at once, it is. Whatever routines I had in the past lie crushed and torn in the trash. I am redefining my life as it happens. Amazingly, the chaos comes without stress and overwhelm. I find I can retain my own inner peace through it all.
I look forward to what the next three months will bring.